De staircase tat we sat/played XD
Den _____ dere XD

have fun can le..

LOL =.="

only tat can make me forget all my troubles ..

I dun need anybody to tell me wad to do.

I know wad i wan...

HATE SCH!! HATE MATHS

2day as usual meet qr den go sch

mdm lina tot i smoke -.-!
...pls lor...
I early morning dun smoke de... =.="
first period pe , den do 5 stations
aft tat poa den physics ...
blah blah blah..




Den maths qr go take my cookie monster XD
hah i know im lame XD
wahh so 'good' hor qr, go make cookie monster XD XD

Maths wasn't listening cos listen le also wont understand...
aft sch ..XD XD
LOL,

1 more sickening yrs in coral!! T_T
aft tat no more secondary school student le..
ite maybe?
things wont be the same forever...
things change from time to time..I hope tat i can get good results again..

haiz...i tink i will retain..

Okay luh....
nth comes free in this world so gotta jy jy for studies!!!
Hah
cz, qr & hannah jy jy for studies!!

Hah random ..lol

I HATE SCH!!!
HATE MATHS!!
HATE MYSELF!!!

SAD.....

TMD my phone for no reason spoil... T.T!!

haiz...

sad...

I now even more sad, my PHONE...

I HATE SCHOOL!

i hate my school, i hate everything , i hate myself more.

dun lik sch...

i hate maths..

who ask singapore so small...if not no need study so hard le..

-.-!

Its a torture going sch, HATE SCHOOL.

对不起 lah.
well, if u know me long enough, certain things i dun mean it.
If u know wad im tinking deep down u'll know why..
Im not a person who is good at words & i know...
Yes, a boring would be the word to describe me..
Okay lah i know im a boring person... T_T


haiz..i so scare i retain this yr..
last yr i dunno how i can score so "high" for quite alot subjects.
history, d&t , geog , chinese , english...Etc ..
Now dun even know if i can pass..
my last yr attitude towards studies is totally different from this yr...
i dunno why...
last yr i damn "hard working" , although nvr study -.-
why cant i score for these subjects again... T_T
My results lik deprove alot le...
Sometimes i wonder why im not born clever?
Why m i so stupid now?
I wan back my A1....
T_T
Okay luh, enough le ba...?

2day

As usual in the morning lor..
den go class...

Okay skip, all the way aft sch ba.

den aft tat go cca lor , sat with abigail & julia..
lol, den got 1 girl keep diao -.-"
Okay luh , i know her from last yr .
if i dunno her i confirm _________ ...
Den cca as usual BORING ...
till 4.30..
But better den last yr i go cca nobody pei me...
At least now got ppl talk with? i tink?
Den got one malay girl in my cca quite friendly..saw her aft cca...
hah, she sec1....

I hate my cca can...
most importantly I HATE SCH!

STUDIES

Im so damn fucking sensitive..
i've always have the mindset tat ppl just dun accept me for who im...means they dun lik me...
NOW
focus on studies ba!!


Okay enough of my stupid mindset le ba...
hate my mind can!
tink so much...
Now leh....looking back..
haiz..really miss de times where...
I scored A1 for geography & history!! well, last yr lah... T.T
Hah so proud.. *bhb only XD
Hah , got 2 for d&t :D
LAST YR -.-
Argh...
Now den i realise my last yr result so "good" de...*bhb

Haiz..now i my results damn bad...T.T
i wan work hard...i wan be lik last time results "good" de..
most importantly..i wan be back to myself in sec2 not tinking so much... T.T

But de teachers in my class damn biase !!
some look down on my class
tmd...okay wadever give de teachers a chance ba....?
Okay den now i wan tink of one ting...
STUDIES. =]

2day leh draw one cookie monster in class XD XD
lol... XD
cookie cookie -.-"
STUDIES first.

Hah! b4 i forget....

2day we say mr ng LAU FU ZI
XP
hah he really look lik ma...
hehs yeah...2day kinda happy?
Cos of my poa :D :D
Finally poa improve by alot le!!! YES!!

tmr den post pics ba..lazy...
so bye~

Accidently hit my finger against the fan...
My finger de skin lik kena peeled off le...
my skin is lik dangling liddat....
can flap open den can close one..lol...
den blue black..==
Obviously..
Touch le pain...
Okay wadever...
I dun feel lik going sch tmr...hate sch..
If only something happen can make me lose all my memories...
i'll be more den happy...

2day leh...
quite a very sad day for me.
i cant believe it ....
i cried in sch...class room somemore....
when im crying i would not speak a word...
omg...i promised myself 3yrs back nvr to cry in front of others again...argh...
nvm lor..
dunno wad say le...
even if i say le got use ma?
no , i give up le..
im so tired...
okay...lol..
Went 14th floor... ___ AGAIN...
i jus cant stop..lik addicted le...
den
went back to my pri sch de outside dere...tink abt last time...
den went back to do de things i used to do b4 having any frens...
lol, okay shall not elaborate ...


Tis is de lonely path where i walked to & fro ...
be it coming back or going sch..
i would always buy soft drinks & walk home while drinking it..
Last time,i was contented enough if i had a soft drink in hand while walking home..


lonely path i walked in de past....


Photo at somewhere outside my pri sch..
i rmb..i once saw my pri sch crush climbing out of this..
lol, i saw le obviously is happy lo..Used to really lik tis guy alot...LAST TIME..
lol, he same pri sch as me & same sec sch tooo..coral sec XD

hah rmb i sec1 lik him -.-"
Lol, LAST TIME
okay haiz..
enough le..
I hope tat i could change for de better , talk more...social more..
last but not least for goodness sake for me to stop crying -.-
Argh,...i hate it when i cry, make me hate myself more..
&& i gotta stop thinking of negative things le..
yao xian de kai..
if i now cannot take any blows , den if i grow up le i might end up commiting suicide..
lol,
den I MUST TRY TALK MORE!!!
MORE SOCIABLE!!!
STOP THINKING NEGATIVE THINGS LE!!!
LAST BUT NOT LEAST STOP CRYING FOR GOODNESS SAKE..

all these mentioned above i will try to change....

&&!!!
Qian ru & u all I DUN TREAT U AS SUBSTITUDE OKAY!!!
i will try talk more....
but if we lose contact le wad i wan say is All the best in wadever u do.
good luck for everything
lastly THX for letting me know once tat true friendships ever existed
Xie xie..for everything.
SORRY for everything too...

10july



Erm 2day as usual in de morning..
den got mt..
i dun lik zhange yan..-.-
I hate my place!!!!
nobody talk to ..lol..
nvr bring txtbk den cockroach ask me go share with stacey.
We talk talk abt Zhang yan XD XD
Ever since de day she wear tat black dunno wad shirt..
she's been wearing it ever since..-_-
LOL.. nvr change clothes
Hahs. xD

Okay den aft mt got chem..
teacher show de vitamin c de tablet.
Lol..den blah blah..
Done .

9 july



Today cz qr me go central den cz & qr saw byron & jun jie..den blah blah..
Jiu saw one cat damn cute de..so qr wan carry it ma so i pick it up & carry it around..I carry de cat lik my baby liddat XD XD lol.. I feel kinda ps carry it in my arms everywhere..LOL..hah..

But de cat damn cute lah..wan bring home sia..LOL..

but in de end just let it go..

When we feeding de cat somewhere in central..








(my room..lol..just random pics..)





Done le ba...

2day..jus so lazy to elaborate much..nth much happen i guess..
I feel so confuse...
blister damn pain..lol
i dunno wad im thinking le..
Im trying so hard to look at things from in a positive way..
all my life..i now den realise my thinking is always negative..
negative = most of de time i feel sad.
My self confidence had been hit so hard last..now have low self esteem..
I now den realise i dun have any confidence in wadever i do..
I always have de thinking tat wadever i do , i will not succeed..
I dun dare look ppl in de eye..i dunno why..
maybe cos i wad afraid of history repeating itself...
I dunno how forget tat thing..
I just cant do it....

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IM
SORRY......
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