Total 'break down ytd.
I m a human, i have feelings what do u expect?

~我找不到很好的原因 去阻擋這一切的情意

這感覺太奇異 我抱歉不能說明
我任性 投入你給的惡作劇
你給的惡作劇~
song lyric, hah......

Hmmm...today go sch only got poa exam so 1hr only.
Urgh, lazy blog.



TO : _________, (if u can see it....)

Yah i know i was wrong right from the start, scolding u & all those.
Posting all tat stuffs on my blog, claiming tat u were bad & all.
Den de 'quarrels started..
yes i admit i was wrong , i deserve it now.
But of course dere's a logical explanation for de way tat i behaved.
When blah blah they all entered ur life, in other words made frens with them.
actually i nvr really minded, den blah entered too.
Life seemed perfect for u , had everything going for u.
Fun whenever u were with them..so yah..
But alot of times i wanted to talk to u , but whenever i tried, u nvr seemed to respond...
moreover whenever u were with them , i always felt like an extra, i had de thinking tat all they wanted was to be alone with u & blah . Yes very true & i always thought they wanted me out of sight , out of ur life.
Last time , whenever ur wanted to go somewhere to eat, okay i still rmb,
In the kfc de time, dere were only four seats, blah they all each took one seat, yeah u took a seat too.
All together gang gang hao four seats for ur all to seat, back den i didn't knew where to seat so i ended up standing dere watch ur eat, nobody seems to care abt me..At tat moment i almost wanted to cry but nvr.
So i got de feeling of me being an extra dere, i nvr ask for much but just to spend sometime with u as a fren only..


Den dere comes de time abt the blog ting...
I hope u understand wad i mean?
Sorry.
So many months have passed, i cannot keep living in the so called past tat i always go alone with u during recess or maybe even aft sch.
Yes at tat point in time, i took everything for granted, i nvr treasured the times i spent with u..
Things change, people change..for the better or for the worst.


Now , u seem so happy in ur life & in sch...
Hope u forever stay happy forver.
I sound lik dunno wad but
Just to let u know tat i'll always be here for u as a fren whether in good times or bad .


Ytd cos of tis ting, even though so long le, i broke down.
I sound silly but nvm..
Den comes de time where blah blah & u indirectly asked me to go home, so i did, i nvr knew...
Nvm...
maybe its my fault..
But tat , point of time, u made frens with blah blah they all, overtimes i became more & more withdrawn..
Not wanting to speak my mind abt anything...


Den maybe tats why ......
nvm...
Who am i trying to kid..
I am such a bad fren, forcing u not to go with them, maybe overtime u realised tat my charactor let u bth or stressed up or anything.
Making myself so ...
nvm...
Nowadays, i know whenever u go out or anything u'll nvr ask me de.
Nvm i understand, at first i took it quite personally, but as time passes, i begin to more more forget de times we spent together as a fren..
sometimes i do tink of it.. precious memories which i'll nvr forget in my whole life time.
Thx for those memories,
hmm from somewhere around last yr, october till june smth smth plus.
A good 8months.. i'll treasure those memories
U know why i said tat?
Cos aft june de time we started quarrelling & now i observer tat we are drifting apart
Tats my thinking lah , dun angry if u read tis okay?.
Sorry ,

All these, from the bottom of my heart .